Today I bought a journal. Actually it is not the fact that I bought one, rather it is among the first steps I am taking in this 50th year of my journey.
One of the first things I knew I needed to do is to write and have a place to work through my thoughts. This blog is one place, but it can not be the only place. I need a private place to sort it all out. After living 49 years and accumulating a lot of “baggage”, I really need a place to dump out the contents of my heart and look at them.
I used to journal when I was a young man. Every now and then I would try to start again. But never have I had as clear a view of what I wanted to do with the journalling process as I do right now. I want to use it to collect memories, sort through thoughts, decipher hidden motives of my own heart, organize for simplicity, implement jubilee, and gather together things that are important to me. Writing it down has an amazing way of connecting heart, head, life and action.
As I close this post I want to share a portion of what I gathered and wrote down today. It is a Prayer in the “Middle Years” of Opportunity taken from Celtic Daily Prayer. It is my prayer this year.
Lord, help me to unclutter my life;
to organize myself in the direction of simplicity.
Lord, teach me to listen to my heart;
teach me to welcome change, instead of fearing it.
I give you my discontent,
I give you my restlessness,
I give you my despair,
I give you all the longings I hold inside.
Help me to listen to these signs of change, of growth;
to listen seriously and follow where they lead
through the breathtaking empty space of an open door.